Reflection - Authentic vs. Actor Self

Are there times in my life that I feel like I am being judged or expected to act a certain way that is not my normal mode?  What are examples?

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What is my earliest memory of when I adjusted my behavior because I just ‘knew’ I was supposed to, or that I would get in trouble, or there would be consequences?

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How did my parents or caregivers treat me when I did something that was not favorable?And how did I adjust myself to fit in?

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What was their reaction to me when I did a good job or acted like I knew I was ‘supposed’ to?

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Eventually, I reached my own conclusions about my family dynamic. Do I match the personality of my tribe or am I different? How did that formulate my beliefs about myself?

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How do I judge myself, and what do I judge myself against. My job? My coworkers? My siblings? My friends?  

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How has that served me in the past? And does it still?

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Who do I know that acts in a way that isn’t who they really are?  

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What is my opinion about them?  

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How does it make me feel when they are around me?

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When I have been acting outside of myself, and it feels yucky, what habits have I created to ‘self soothe’ or justify this action to myself? 

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What does it feel like to be in my Authentic Self?  

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How do I know I am there, and where do I feel that in my body?

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Which is easier for me today – being in my authentic self, or in my actor self? 

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The environments section is coming up soon, but for now, which environments do I find I fake it more, and which ones are easy for me to be more authentic?

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As I reflect on these environments, do I enjoy where I spend my time, or do I feel drained and stressed?  

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